Bianca Bayer's blog
Bianca's Battle Week #2
Week 2 was much harder than I anticipated. I had many roadblocks- most that I overcame but some that I did not. It's also week 2 of a coffee free lifestyle. I can't say that this is all coming easy to me at all! I am facing the fact that I MUST change my routine for the greater good of beating this addiction for once and for all. The hardest part for me this week was dealing with the "mean" cravings. There are a few types of different cravings one can experience. First one being the "simple" craving- this craving is easy - it comes and it goes- no biggie. Then there's the "never-ending" craving-it's a mild one too but it lingers- this is where keeping busy with mundane tasks or chores can ween off the urge to cave. The craving I've been dealing with the most this week is the "mean" one- Also known as the transformation from human to HULK. There seems to be a monster living inside of me dying to tear me to shreds when "he" wants a cigarette- this craving has made me break down in tears for no reason 3 times this week! This craving has made me start up with the grocery clerk because he let the man in front of me go through the express line with 30 items!!! This craving has made my blood pressure sky rocket from 1 to 1 million in 2 ½ seconds!! This craving made it alright for me to have a few cigarettes yesterday, during my boyfriends son's 4year old birthday party- which we hosted at our place. If anyone has any advise to get past the "Hulk" cravings - PLEASE do tell (twitter @Bibayer or Biancambayer@gmail.com) The average mood this week was no so good...take a look!
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